I have recently been a bit down, withdrawn, angry, depressed…yes, all of that rolled up into a big ball of…DON’T MESS WITH ME! I have been evaluating what in my life has changed…well we all know my precious gift of a little girl is one huge change of which is top priority in my life. I have also been trying to eliminate clutter and move our important items into an RV that we will live in full time. These are huge life changes. In the process I have been unable to color from either lack of time or lack of supplies because most is packed. It seams when I got a moment to color it was because of a commitment and in the time alotted had to be done so quickly the enjoyment was dwindling. I felt so overwhelmed with life. I found myself sitting around, playing with my baby girl and flipping through social media to pass the day (you can only hit refresh so many times before there is no more to refresh). What long days they are. I felt that if I didn’t have enough time to be creative from start to finish (find my mojo, color and create) that I would spend time doing “nothing” instead. So for months I have done little to nothing. I felt myself slipping into a depression, being angry at the world and jealous of all those people making things on the groups I follow.
I usually am the sounding board for my friends but this time it was me doing most of the talking. My friends listened to my angry ranting and raving, pissed off at the world, with an overload of self pity, Talking really helped pull me out of my funk…it wasn’t because they said to go color (although that was said too), it was because they made me laugh, I forgot about all my whoas for a moment. They encouraged me to try a little coloring…nothing I had to do, but rather to color something just because. WHOA! Now mind you my days are the same routine as before but over the last few days I have colored about 10 images…somehow juggling the little one and life. Yes, my house is a disaster, but I feel a weight lifted and feel so inspired that I will just allow the house to wait. Coloring IS therapy!
For those of you who are feeling the same way. Feeling that life is just to much and doesn’t allow you to be creative…take a moment for you. You might be a little artistically rusty but that will go away once you oil your mojo. Don’t wait until you have time…do it now.
Ok, this therapy session was free….go find you!!
PS. I am fine…no one worry…this too will pass….I can feel the Copics running through my veins again COPICS FOREVER…HOUSEWORK WHENEVER!